Coming up for air!

Shug’s got me looking like this;

I love that man!

Marathon sessy times is in full swing.

I think I’m ovulating as I type.

I can only hope that we get lucky this month.

I found out on Sunday that my niece is pregnant.

Her beautiful baby girl is going to be a big sister.

She’s a few years younger than me,

I’m so glad that she didn’t have to struggle with secondary infertility.

I had a great weekend with Shug.

We saw The H.a.n.g.over on Saturday (it’s hilarious),

and spent Sunday on the lake with friends.

I start taking pr.og.ester.one on Friday,

and head to the doctor on Tuesday for monitoring (last one).

That’s all for now,

I’m going back under.

Wish me luck!

La la la laaaaaaa….

I feel good!

I know I’ve been quiet for a few days.

I can’t get my thoughts together to post anything of significance.

I’m anxiously waiting for CD3 so I can start taking F.e.mar.a.

Too bad it’s only CD23.

I wish I could write something of substance,

but I’m too excited to focus on anything.

I feel like I’m floating.

Floating on a cloud of hope & faith.

Prayerfully it will work this time.

The Love of My Life!

Shug!

God blessed me when he came into my life.

We’ve been in a good place the past few weeks.

Looking out for each other.

Spending more time together.

Small things,

that makes us appreciate each other a little more.

We’re also hopeful right now.

We’ve both got a little kick in our step,

and a twinkle in our eyes.

And even though it’s a long shot;

I would love to be able to place a happy and healthy child

in the arms of The Love of My Life!

Doing the happy dance!

It’s a long shot,

but we are going forward with medicated cycles.

Met.formi.n, Let.raz.ole & P.r.omet.rium.

Along with acupuncture and herbs.

The first cycle will be monitored.

We’ll start on CD 3 next month.

And can I say thank you?

You all have been so supportive.

I thank God for all of you!

Now,

let’s all do the Happy Dance!!

I still have hope….

First of all,

I’m feeling much better.

Still having a little pain,

but nothing like the severe pain that I experienced on Monday.

So anyway,

I’m not ready to give up on trying to make a baby.

I’ve been thinking about calling my doctor.

I want to try a few medicated cycles.

I’ve never tried a medicated cycled along with me.t.form.in

and acupuncture.

It’s cheaper than IUI;

and since IVF is out of the question

it’s seems like it’s totally do-able.

I just made the appointment,

before I talked myself out of it.

I have a consultation scheduled on Tuesday at 10:45 AM.

Yay me!!

I’ve also been thinking about  BRAC Analysis.

I think I should do it.

And if it’s possible,

I’ll do it on Tuesday.

Shug is all for the testing,

he’s not excited about the medicated cycles.

And I understand where he’s coming from;

but since we can’t afford to do IVF

I feel like we should be doing something.

ANYTHING other than nothing!

I know it’s a long shot,

but I want to try.

I’m just not ready to give up yet.

For some strange reason,

I still have hope.

Month #46

We’ve been trying to make a baby for 46 months!

46 FUCKING MONTHS!!!

Wooosaaahhh………..

*taking a slow deep breath*

I’m fairly certain that I ovulated on Tuesday.

I had the usual symptoms

Burning nether region, bloating and some serious soreness in my left ovary.

Shug & I have been enjoying my fertile time.

We’ve been going at like teenagers since Saturday.

And we’ve had a lot fun doing it!

We always do.

So now, I guess I’m in the two week wait.

My version of the two week wait has changed in these four years of trying.

I used to eat right, increase my water consumption and restrict certain foods.

I used to jump at and document everything that I thought was symptom.

I would chart, take my temperature, check cm….I did it all.

Not anymore.

Doing all of that stuff nearly drove me crazy.

It doesn’t help that my body plays cruel cruel tricks on me.

About every other month or so, I get veiny boobs and I throw up before my period starts.

I don’t say anything to anyone

I don’t test

And I’m no longer surprised when my period starts right on time.

Some may read this and think that I’m having chemical pregnancies.

No, that would be too much like right!

These very same symptoms happened when I did my IUI and was being monitored by RE.

My IUI failed to get us pregnant.

So I no longer look at the TWW as others do.

I no longer buy into the TWW.

I throw caution to the wind and I do everything that I want to.

If I want to drink alchol, I do.

If I want to eat garbage, I do.

If I want to drink caffeine, I do.

I do what I have to do to just to get through it.

46 months……..46 FUCKING MONTHS!!

All around good news!

Shug is all set to return to work next Monday.

He’s recovering much quicker than expected.

He’s off crutches and walking with a cane.

He’s doing great!

Happy Birthday Martin Luther King, Jr.

I can only wonder what he would think about the history that will be made tomorrow.

Our nation’s First Black President will be inaugurated.

You can feel the energy in the air.

I never imagined I would see this in my life time.

I thank God that my parents are alive to witness this.

Watching their excitement is awe inspiring.

It’s also my fertile time!

I don’t expect anything to come of it.

Especially since it feels like I’m ovulating from my right ovary (which is blocked).

But we’re making the most of it anyway.

Having fun with the sessy times.

Who knows, we just might get lucky.

Stranger things have happened!