Why not us?

My period started bright and early this morning.

I knew it would.

I haven’t cried yet.

I took a whole blue pill instead of half.

I’m trying really hard not question God’s plan.

But I can’t help but ask,

Why not us?

I can get used to this…..

My period started early yesterday morning.

29 days this time.

I shed a few tears,

but I felt okay.

I felt………..hopeful.

Maybe the acupuncture has something to do with this.

I don’t know.

Whatever it is – I’m rolling with it

because I’m feeling kinda good!

No PMDD symptoms at all yesterday.

None today either.

I did take half of a little blue pill this morning.

Although, I probably could have gotten away without taking it.

But I didn’t want to take a chance with the evil.

I feel good,

and I could definitely get used to this!

I was hoping I wouldn’t have to do it….

Because I felt like the F*@k You Up Fairy!

I took my first z.o.loft pill today.

My period,

Yeah I said it

Fuck that Aunt Flo bullshit

I’m a grown ass woman

I bleed

I have a PERIOD!

Unfortunately like clockwork

Every 32 days!!!

I usually have PMS a week before I bleed

Sometimes a few days before

But not usually the day of.

Anyway

My period started this morning

I cried like I usually do

And then I went to work

And the rage started!

Uncontrollable rage.

Shug had to bring me a pill.

Amazingly

It worked

And it worked quickly.

As you can tell

I’m still a little bitchy

But trust and believe

I’m much better than I was earlier today!

I’ll take another tomorrow.

I don’t want the F*&k You Up Fairy to show up again!

Oh yeah,

I forgot to mention.

When I mentioned how out of control my PMS has been.

And when I answered yes to all the screening questions.

My doctor prescribed Z.ol.oft for PMDD.

I’m only supposed to take it on my out of control days.

I’ll see if it really works in about 11-14 days when the PMS usually kicks in.

I’m trying not to make a big deal out of this.

It’s for PMDD, not depression.

But damn.

It’s kind of hard not too.

It’s an an.tid.epr.es.sant.

I’m trying to get the stigma out of my head.

I keep telling myself.

Get over it lady!

It’s just more “Seasoning”!