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Shug had his dressing changed yesterday.

He has six incisions.

His tendon transfer was definitely successful.

His foot is standing tall,

in a normal position.

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He goes back next Monday to have his stitches removed.

He’ll be in walking boot for a while.

On Thursday he resumes physical therapy for his knee.

Not certain when he’ll start rehabbing his foot.

A lot of that therapy will be training his brain to move his foot.

His doctor said it will take a while to train his brain to move his foot.

He told him that he will get frustrated and question why he did the surgery.

But in the end he will be able to train his brain to move his foot.

I’m doing better today.

My period started early Saturday morning.

Shug and I talked about the lack of PMDD symptoms.

I told him that I want to see my doctor to have blood-work done.

Of course, he wants me to leave it alone.

So I will for now,

especially since the PMDD showed up.

FULL FORCE!!

We were eating lunch at Red Robin.

Uncontrollable emotions.

I started crying at the table.

Still don’t know why,

but we left quickly after that.

Went home and took half of the little blue pill.

Took one Sunday too.

I should have taken one yesterday,

but I didn’t.

So yeah,

no question about it.

PMDD is around when I’m menstrual and post-menstrual.

Now that I know that,

watch it change up again.

Oh what a lovely ride……

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I love Manatees.

I always have.

They’re adorable.

I wish I had one as a pet.

If I did,

 I would name her Ida.

I don’t know why,

but I would.

Random huh?

Not much is going on.

I’ve had little flares,

but nothing like I’ve had in the past.

No extreme irrational behavior,

well aside from really wanting a Manatee named Ida…..

But seriously,

it’s CD 31 and nothing.

I’ve got the crampy about to start feeling that I love so much.

I know I’m not pregnant,

 but these changes are baffling.

January, February and now March.

Maybe I don’t have PMDD.

I think I should make an appointment with my doctor to discuss this.

Maybe I am in perimenopause.

But if I was,

would my cycle still be regular?

Maybe I am in the throes of PMDD

and just don’t realize it.

Maybe I’m just batshit crazy…..

….

Posted: February 10, 2009 in PMS
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2413600640_0977c3a3d011This pretty much sums up how I’m feeling.

I’ve figured out that my PMDD is changing.

I think the PMDD is now occurring when I’m Menstrual & Post-Menstrual.

More shit for me to deal with.

And why do I have cramps right now?

And why are my boobs hurting like hell?

This is definitely new.

Oh the fucking joy!

pmsWhere is the irritability and anger?

Where is the anxiety, tension and edginess?

No sudden mood shifts..

This morning I started spotting.

That’s new.

I usually just start full on.

And it’s also early for me (CD 29).

I have had mittelschmerz,

but I always have that.

I wasn’t expecting it,

but I feel fine.

Felt fine last week too.

That’s usually when it hits.

Where is the PMDD?

I’m definitely not complaining;

but I am curious.

Oh well,

I guess we’ll see.

On to bigger and better things.

Posted: January 15, 2009 in PMS
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Not just because I got glasses.
But because I’ve been able to really look at myself.
I’m a handful.
I’ve got issues.
Shug deserves a medal or at least a trophy for putting up with me.
So since I’m seeing myself clearly.
Flaws and all.
I’m going to try to do better.
I’m going to try to stick to my New Year’s Commitment of being positive this year.
It won’t be easy.
I already failed last week when the PMDD hit me full force.
But I can see that I need to work on my issues.
Sooner rather than later.

Because I felt like the F*@k You Up Fairy!

Because I felt like the F*@k You Up Fairy!

I took my first z.o.loft pill today.

My period,

Yeah I said it

Fuck that Aunt Flo bullshit

I’m a grown ass woman

I bleed

I have a PERIOD!

Unfortunately like clockwork

Every 32 days!!!

I usually have PMS a week before I bleed

Sometimes a few days before

But not usually the day of.

Anyway

My period started this morning

I cried like I usually do

And then I went to work

And the rage started!

Uncontrollable rage.

Shug had to bring me a pill.

Amazingly

It worked

And it worked quickly.

As you can tell

I’m still a little bitchy

But trust and believe

I’m much better than I was earlier today!

I’ll take another tomorrow.

I don’t want the F*&k You Up Fairy to show up again!