Posts Tagged ‘PMDD’

This is My Best Friend In The Whole Wide World Baby Girl - Kennedy Simone

See that look?

That’s exactly how I feel.

I’ll start posting again after the PMDD passes.

MyMama isn’t going to be able to donate a kidney to MyDaddy.

She is devastated.

Her kidney function wouldn’t be at a healthy level if she donates.

A co-worker of mine has offered to donate.

He faxed his paperwork yesterday.

Isn’t that amazingly wonderful?

Thanksgiving was nice,

but no one was in the mood for turkey.

We ate gumbo and cornbread dressing.

We’ve decided to volunteer next year.

I see my  doctor on Monday,

I’ve decided to tell her that we are no longer trying to conceive.

She’ll probably put my on hbp medication.

Which is fine,

my uterus and ovaries are useless.

My annual is on Thursday.

I’ll probably make my doctor cry again.

There’s more,

but I’m still not in the mood to write.

This blog is depressing as hell!

Thank you!

I have wonderful bloggy friends!

Thank you for the words of encouragement,

the offers to fund raise,

and the general support.

Thank you for holding my hand.

Thank you for listening.

I appreciate you ladies so much.

I’m still feeling the same way,

but you ladies have put  a lot on mind.

I appreciate that none of you are letting me off that easy.

I will take your advice into consideration,

and keep you posted on what we decide to do.

In the meantime,

I am truly humbled by you all!

123So I’ve been quiet again.

Not really talking about infertility.

Not talking about how I really feel about infertility.

Not talking about much of anything.

The truth is,

we’re wasting our time doing anything other than IVF.

The truth is,

we can’t afford IVF.

The truth is,

we can afford IVF internationally & could possibly make it happen next year.

The truth is,

I don’t really want to do international IVF.

The truth is,

I think we’re done.

I think we’re done.

It hurts to type that,

but it’s time to be honest.

It hurts to admit it,

but it’s time to be honest.

54 months is a long time.

We should have two children by now.

I’m tired.

I’m tired of hoping,

wishing,

and praying.

I’m tired of jumping at imaginary pregnancy symptoms.

I’m tired of getting my hopes up when my period is late.

I’m tired.

Shug is tired.

We’re tired.

Unless God blesses us with a true miracle,

we probably will not be parents.

Ummm…… yeah,

it’s time to be honest.

questionWhere’s my period?

I took my last progesterone pill on August 29th.

I usually start two days after my last pill.

I’m a little crampy,

it feels like I’m going to start,

but I’ve felt like this for a few days.

No PMDD this month either.

I’m too scared to test,

and I’m too scared to get my hopes up.

I’m sure my period will start today now that I’ve asked the question.

I’m not going to do anything until Friday.

That way if I start,

I won’t have to deal with the heartbreak of seeing a negative test.

Oh well,

I guess we’ll see.

that’s all!

No picture,

I’m still feeling funky!

Rae asked for an update,

so here it is.

Ultrasound was good.

The dominant follicle was in my left ovary.

The nurse called early Thursday morning,

my lab work was “REALLY GOOD”.

I didn’t ask for numbers,

just didn’t feel like it.

I know what PMDD feels like,

so it doesn’t matter how good the numbers were.

That’s all I’ve got.

I’ll post more when I feel better

and after my period starts.

Until then,

eh!