Archive for October, 2008

Blown apart!

Posted: October 29, 2008 in Family, Illness
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I don’t have much time, but here’s the deal.  Shug’s knee, for lack of better words, is FUCKED UP!! Not only is his knee dislocated, his ACL, PCL, LCL and Peroneal Nerve are shredded.  His lateral hamstring and his PCL are both pulled completely off the bone.  He’s still in the hospital on IV pain medication.  He is scheduled for reconstructive surgery on Friday.  We’re looking at two months on crutches and a lot of rehab. 

Please say a few extra prayers for us.  We need them!


I couldn’t make this shit up if I tried.

Guess where I spent the night?



Shug's Leg


Shug slipped and fell in the house. Dislocated his knee and tore up everything in between.  He was at home alone, so he had to call 911.  Luckily my mother and neighbor were available to let EMS in the house because he was down in the bedroom.  They admitted him last night because he knee is blown!  He is having an MRI this morning and exploratory surgery this afternoon.  They will repair what they can today, but he will probably have to have another surgery to repair his ACL in a few weeks.

I’m not going to say it, because I’m seriously thinking that we’re cursed! I’m thinking we’re well seasoned now. Don’t you?

*big sigh*

PLEASE…………..just keep us in your prayers!!

*bigger sigh*

*deep breath*

My life’s recipe is calling for something to remove the bite of all that cayenne pepper that was added on Friday!

So my Big Brother is going to be okay! Praise God & Baby Jesus! He spent the weekend in the hospital, but was released yesterday afternoon. The emergency room doctor’s read his echo cardiogram incorrectly (Thank God).  His heart is functioning at 40%.  While that’s not a great number, it’s a good number for him and it’s much better than 32%.  It turns out that he is having PVCs. He is hypersensitive to them because it’s basically the same feeling he gets if his heart is in an irregular rhythm and his defibrillator fires.  They’re changing his medications and will continue to monitor him.  This is something that he will continue to live with, and he will be okay. 

We are just so thankful that it’s not time for a heart transplant.

Whereas most recipe’s call for a teaspoon of cayenne pepper; apparently my life’s recipe calls for a cup! 

God give me strength! 

My Big Brother is in the hospital.  Back story; in 2003 he had a pace maker/defibrillator implanted after he passed out at work. His cardiologists discovered that his heart was damaged from taking a popular supplement. It came as shock to everyone  for several reasons – he worked out religiously, didn’t drink or smoke. On the surface  he was very healthy with about 6% body fat and he was only 39 years old.  He was dealt a blow when we found out that he had electrical and pumping problems. His heart was functioning at about 70%.  Earlier this year he found out that his heart was functioning at 57%.  A month ago he learned that it had decreased to 32%. 

He needs a heart transplant.

Right now, I’m walking on faith.  I have to. I have to be strong for my mother. She’s falling apart right now. She just buried her sister two weeks ago. 

*big sigh*

So it’s been a stressful year. REAL stressful. Shug and I shared a good laugh the other night; we agreed that this year has been “seasoning”.  All that we’ve been through this year can only make us stronger and better people.  All the stress has added flavor to our lives.  Not the type of flavoring that we would like, but flavor none the less.  Prayerfully by the end of this year, we’ll be fully seasoned and ready to move onto the next stage……….marinating in goodness. =)

Seriously though, we are realistic.  While we are prayerful that we will get pregnant before the end of this year, we realize that it’s not probable.  Especially without assistance.  We have accepted our fate. We will continue to try to remain positive and hopeful that next year will be better. It has to be, I don’t think I will be able to make it if next year is a repeat of this year. Well maybe I could, but I would definitely need therapy!

I’ve been tagged!

Posted: October 22, 2008 in Uncategorized

I’m blessed to have some truly great friends.  I’m excited about the friendships that I’m making on the Internet.  I have received some wonderful words of wisdom from you ladies and I truly appreciate it.  Brown Eyed Girl tagged me, so I’m it!

1. Do you have the same friends since childhood?
No.  My father was in the Air Force and we traveled every three to four years.  I have kept in touch with a few, but not as many as I would like.

2. What do you value most about your friends?
My friends are genuinely good people.  I value their advice, time and their well being. I can always count on them to provide a shoulder to lean on or an ear to listen.

3. Are your friends sounding boards?
OMG hell yes!

4. What is your favorite activity to share with friends?
Most of my close friends are gay guys. On Wednesdays we watch Pr.oject Run.way or To.p Che.f.  Halloween is special time, we make costumes and go to the gayborhood for the annual parade. But my most favorite times are when we get together with no agenda and just enjoy each others company.

It’s just not our season…

Posted: October 20, 2008 in Life
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2006 was a wonderful year for Shug and I. Everything seemed to go our way. It was our season. I think we took it for granted.  We have been working on several things all year and none of them have come to fruition.  Shug pointed this out in our clarifying conversation on October 12th.  He said “It’s just not our season”.  This past week I’ve been full of anxiety, waiting to hear some good news.   And once again, the news is not good.  As Shug says, “It’s just not our season”. I’m trying, God knows that I’m trying to remain positive. But it’s hard. It’s been a hard hard year and I don’t think that I can take anymore bad news. It’s been one thing after another and I’m done. God give me strength! When will it end?