happy-dance1We’ve been trying to make a baby for 46 months!

46 FUCKING MONTHS!!!

Wooosaaahhh………..

*taking a slow deep breath*

I’m fairly certain that I ovulated on Tuesday.

I had the usual symptoms

Burning nether region, bloating and some serious soreness in my left ovary.

Shug & I have been enjoying my fertile time.

We’ve been going at like teenagers since Saturday.

And we’ve had a lot fun doing it!

We always do.

So now, I guess I’m in the two week wait.

My version of the two week wait has changed in these four years of trying.

I used to eat right, increase my water consumption and restrict certain foods.

I used to jump at and document everything that I thought was symptom.

I would chart, take my temperature, check cm….I did it all.

Not anymore.

Doing all of that stuff nearly drove me crazy.

It doesn’t help that my body plays cruel cruel tricks on me.

About every other month or so, I get veiny boobs and I throw up before my period starts.

I don’t say anything to anyone

I don’t test

And I’m no longer surprised when my period starts right on time.

Some may read this and think that I’m having chemical pregnancies.

No, that would be too much like right!

These very same symptoms happened when I did my IUI and was being monitored by RE.

My IUI failed to get us pregnant.

So I no longer look at the TWW as others do.

I no longer buy into the TWW.

I throw caution to the wind and I do everything that I want to.

If I want to drink alchol, I do.

If I want to eat garbage, I do.

If I want to drink caffeine, I do.

I do what I have to do to just to get through it.

46 months……..46 FUCKING MONTHS!!

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Comments
  1. rosesdaughter says:

    And here I was complaining about 15! I think the 2ww is evil. VERY EVIL! So much so that I am going to try try try not to get caught up in it. But……..YOU ARE IN THE 2 WEEK WAIT AFTER 46 FUCKING MONTHS!!!!!!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

  2. iambrowneyedgirl says:

    I’ve got all my fingers and toes crossed for you!!!!

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