Posted: October 2, 2008 in infertility, tww
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I’ve been sick with a bad head cold since Monday.  I saw my primary care physician yesterday, I needed some relief.  I will never understand how I’m stopped up with a runny nose. I just don’t feel well.  The first thing she asked me was if it’s possible that I’m pregnant.  I told her anything is possible, but with me it’s not probable.  She wanted to do blood work to rule mono but she also did a pregnancy test. Both tests were negative.  

The thing is, I’m okay with the test being negative.  I really am.  When I’m ready to share how I have been feeling about having children; I’ll explain why I’m okay with this negative pregnancy test.  While I’m not disappointed about the negative pregnancy test; I am disappointed because the me.tfo.rmin has kept me regular since I’ve been on it.  Now I have to call my doctor for a refill for pr.ome.trium. I was hoping that I would be able to avoid having to take it.  PCOS is taking over again.  I think my ovaries are back where they started and I’m going to have those long 48 day cycles without intervention. 

So I’m okay, and it feels good to be able to say that and mean it.  For the past three years I’ve said “I’m okay” when I wasn’t.  In the past, I wanted to put up a good front. Today, there is no front – I’m okay.

  1. iambrowneyedgirl says:

    I’m glad that you’re ok.

  2. rosesdaughter says:

    Hey, I’ve been missing in action and catching up on all of your posts. I hope your Dad gets his kidney real soon! Sometimes, small moments turn into big ones. What ever you are thinking on, if it’s right for you, it’s right for you. Find your JOY and stick to it. TTC has been stealing my joy, but no more. But anyway, I’m glad you are ok!

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